18 Nov 2008
this is life.
and these are the scars of my heart.
zaza at 10:50 am
- at November 18, 2008 said...
It is called infatuation or something. People fall in love with movie-stars and think, they are their best friends. Ever listened to "Stan" by Marshal Mathers?
We all know these movie-stars or whatever don't even know our name, and never will. Same is true for other people we admire. They will never know how we feel for them, and will never care, but still we try. But after a while, we grow older and learn to accept the facts and get pissed off and get bitter. That is life.
Listen to what Stan did at the end of the song...
- at November 20, 2008 zaza said...
yeah ive heard it. he kills himself. its all in ones head isnt it, we let emotions over-power us. if im going thru a rough patch, i always tell myself that it could be worse. and dammit you write so well, get a blog or atleast keep a journal or something. i urge you
- at November 21, 2008 said...
Yes, it can be worse, but you still keep trying to make it better. Otherwise, you are just making it worse yourself.
No more blogs for me. They are no good for me. I have written hundreds of kilobytes of text, and the one it was meant for, an undeserving lowlife fool didn't even remember my name any longer. I'm over it, because you gotta get over it some day.
Misery loves company, but to stop being miserable, one has to change one's thinking. It is easy once you get hold of it. Each day it gets easier and easier to accept facts.
- at November 21, 2008 zaza said...
good for you, glad youre over it. i know exactly what you mean. how low can one get for the sake of love? you hurt, but when you realise that the person on the receiving end doesnt give a fuck, your life becomes so dark and you hurt more. but i feel like ive become a better and stronger person so atleast some good has come out of it :) and to make things better for yourself, the desire to make things better should be there first. and the rest follows.
when this undeserving fool realises what shes missed out on, she will kick herself so hard that i hope she ends up with a dent on her head.
- at November 21, 2008 An ILLuS|On said...
maybe no one's indispensable or maybe time heals everything..guess its both or its something else..either way it hurts the same & there's no hiding from it.
- at November 24, 2008 said...
She may kick herself and may end up with a dent on her empty head, but I won't be there to see it, and I won't look down on her either. Everyone does not need to end up a winner. There has got to be people waiting tables, putting up with abuse, having a job, but no career, incapable of taking care of their own needs, etc etc.